Realization Day

Tonight I stepped on a scale and it shocked me. I've never been small... No where close to it, but today, today I realized that I have become ... I don't even know what to call it. I sickened myself. The rolls, the folds, the double chin, the wings on my arms, the flap below my stomach. I'm gross. Why would anyone love me when I don't even love myself. How can I be a great mom and give the kids what they want and deserve when I've allowed myself to become this blood.

Today, today is the day that I will change. Tonight I weighed in at 333.6lbs. Time to figure out what to do before I put myself into an early grave.